The dead and silent - Deepest thoughts, darkest feelings.

Every day she goes,
With panda eyes and worn out brains.
Working around the clock,
Just to get all the blame.
People see their effort,
But they forgot who led them there.

All they cared was,
Did we win?
Or did we lose?
All they did was,
Claim the credits,
And push the blame.
Leaving the poor girl,
To shoulder all the pain.

No one knew,
No one cared,
No one bothered to comfort her.
No one heard,
No one saw,
How she tried to stifle all her sniffs.

Who would ever see?
All the grief in her.
Who would ever know?
All the sorrow she holds.

Little by little,
Her sniffs subside to silent tears.
Bit by Bit,
Her thoughts became fear.
She became more distant.
Simply as time ticks away,
She slips away.
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Every time when exams are coming,
I see my homework piling.
Then I start to wonder,
What's up with the teacher.

Isn't homework supposed to be spread out through the year?
But why is she giving them to us only when tests are near?
The teachers tells us we should be revising,
But I just feel that I'm only doing.

After the exams,
we cheer.
Receiving the results,
we tear.

Why are we stressing so much?
What are we trying to get?
Why are revising during lunch?
When will it be over?
Why are we studying our lives out?
Who will see our hard work?

At least Raffles had a statue,
And Farquhar was remembered.
Who would remember the students who tried so hard,
Bu still fail in the end?
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The pain etched deep within,
revealed to all once again.
The wounds that were healing,
are torn open over again.

As streams of tears are flowing,
the remember of times with you comes again.
Will I be able to forgot this feeling,
that is carved so deep ever again?
Radiant colors lit the sky,
As I spread my wings and flew up high.
I can defy the gravity,
But what of the older me?
Beneath my feet the ancient Earth,
The start and origin of my birth.
Per chance I ever will return?
Someday again when I yearn.
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The brightness,
the joy,
the happiness,
not to be toyed.

The light,
the glow,
the shine,
never let it go.

We live,
we see,
we believe,
hoping to be free.

The pain,
the worry,
the fear,
we shall never carry.
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The words spoken,
the wounds open.
The sorrow given,
the smiles stolen.

The rain's pouring,
the tears flowing.
The life's ending,
the feelings going.

It's over,
Am I losing my glower?
I want you as my lover,
But can you be forever?
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Exhaling, feeling breath turning into mist.
Walking, seeing footsteps tracing back to feast.
Watching, last of the survivors fall from the tree.
Hearing, is there no one else but me?
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Hollow and frozen,
Unfelt and unheard,
Remebrance all blurred.
The pain of being chosen.
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Boulders of bane, shouldered in pain.
A heart taint, a mind plain.
Remorse gain, rejoice faint.
Eternal stain, words constraint.
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Tomorrow, we've to walk it to know.
So follow, footsteps deep in snow.
All the woes, we shall throw.
Not the sorrow, it's the joy we shall sow.
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Shivering violently,
Cold with fear.
Rolling down silently,
A single tear.

Only the letter,
Held in her hands so dear.
Everything's smered,
Only her feelings kept deep down here.
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-Sltg-

-Anticipating comments... But I know it's dead over at HoN.-

It's BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

affraid

Thank you, will still continue to make more. I'll be a little away for now, but I'll post as much as I can, as fast as I can. =D

Here's one.

Your heart, it is bleeding,
The wounds, they aren't mending.
Trying to conceal, the agony you're hiding.

Your wings, they're tearing.
The flight, you're wearing.
Trying to heal,the pain you're holding.

Looove It XD hearrt

thanks for your comment. will make more when I'm back from my exams.

Ewwwh, Exams. Well Have Fun Neutral

I've got one more to add, though it isn't that good. I gave up half way through.

Wind blowing, curtains flying.
Flakes falling, tears flowing.
Pen writing, mind whirling.
Feet stepping, don't know where it's leading.
Frozen feelings, silence's killing.

(yeah, "Eww, exams" Totally agree lol)

The beauty you hold,
is what that is gold.
The smile on your face,
you shall never erase.

The light that you show,
is nothing near your glow.
The joy in your voice,
is always a rejoice.
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Your halo, the glow,
It's radiating off you.
Your wings, no strings,
Purity shining right through.
Your songs, you sing,
Sticks in all the minds like glue.
Your smiles, go miles,
They warm all hearts and souls too.
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Everyone dreams,
to be part of it.
Everyone yearns,
to get a life so sweet.

Our dreams,
so wide.
Our hopes,
so high.

You're given one,
yet you just shun it.
enough for need,
never so for greed.

Do you ever thank,
the ones who helped you through?
Do you even think,
life'd be as to what you wish?
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The drained,
The hollow.
Nothing to gain,
So don't you follow.
Hoping for the rain,
To wash away this sorrow.
It's stained,
But there's still tomorrow.
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The rain, it is weighing you down.
This pain, it is killing you now.
Numerous stain, Smiling only makes you a clown.
You try in vain, when you know you will still drown.
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The smiles you portray,
The laughs you said won't fade,
They never once stayed.

The heart all stained,
The soul in pain,
You never knew you were drained.

Always teary when you're alone,
Always so torned and forlorn,
It still stays although you've grown.

You think you can hide,
you feel it'd be alright,
but deep down you've died.
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The passion,
it's tonnes better than fashion.
The desire,
it's blazing like fire.
The crave,
A route that we pave.
The feeling,
Something not worth revealing.
No matter how dark the sky,
no matter how deep your sorrow,
There's sure somewhere you've yet to try.

So spread your wings and fly,
To the place called tomorrow,
That's where only joy comes by.
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-Sltg-

<Enjoy, anticipating comments!>

why do you want to delete this it's good

Did I say I was going to delete? Delete what? I don't remember so. Sorry that I've been inactive, I've been tending to my home site.

Anyway, back with MORE poems!

Torn
My heart's all tainted,
I'm trying to forget this pain.
The pictures left unpainted,
My mind's all plain.
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Peacock
Stuck in your own world,
you never gave a thought for others.
With your nose held so high,
not a single bit of humility left in you.
Always thinking you're inferior towards others,
you often get caught in a warp of self-pity.
If you would only stop and have a look,
at the world around you.
If you would only think out of your square box,
and get outside your well.
When you do one day,
you'll realize your ruthless ignorance.
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The Loner
A city,
at midday.
A shadow,
falling over.

A feeling deep down,
so overwhelming.
A being so forlorn,
with spirits so low.

A helping hand being extended,
yet it was rejected.
A word of comfort,
but it was not accepted.
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You're My Mistake
Twisted insides,
tightening feelings.
Tears never stop flowing,
agony never goes away.
Trying hard to forget,
memories of you and me.
Yet images of our days,
fill the whole of my mind.
My painful and broken heart,
was what kept me up all night.
I've been living in the shadows,
since we've been together.
I have only got this one wish,
To go back to the beginning.
If you could free me then,
I'd have returned with a grateful heart.
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The world is so unfair,
but there's no helping to it.
The world cannot be changed,
so we can only follow it.
----------------------------

No matter how hard you try,
You are always alone.
No matter how much you smile,
You are always empty.

No matter how others condemn you,
You are always cheerful.
No matter how others hate you,
You are always there for them.

But no matter how difficult the route,
You are always strong.
But no matter how tiring the process,
You are always striving.

But no matter how people see you,
you will always be my hero.
But no matter how others despise you,
I will always be there for you.
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Hope
Pandora's box,
the last gift locked.
Perpetual grief,
world's joy is brief.
Eternal pain,
sowed grain by grain.
Remove the chain,
let hope be gained.
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Without You
Tears that keep welling,
sorrow that engulfs the being.
Pain etched deep within,
do't know where to begin.

Staring into the distance,
deep in remembrance.
The sky's covered in black,
Wondering when you'll be back.
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Deathly Fear
Wanting to believe you,
but everytime I do,
I will just get betrayed.

The star I wish upon,
the hope I have drawn,
It has gone and fade.

The darkness overpowering,
the pain overwhelming,
I'm terribly afraid.

If I do go one day,
and it's coming my way,
come to my black parade.
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Ungrateful Souls
Every year we return,
with food and respect.
the incence we'll burn,
hoping God will protect.
We'll pray for what we yearn,
and ask him to direct.
But we never do learn,
for we just don't reflect.
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You Runner
Retreating into one's protective shell,
Fleeing away from every little feat.
Refusing all words that only meant well,
Not learning to stand on one's own feet.
Leaving you alone with pain and sorrow to dwell,
Do you think victory will be what you meet?
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If only...
A life like a puppet,
pain that you can never forget.
Fear captivates your being,
Your life is just fleeing.

If only you could be bold,
sorrow will not be what you hold.
If only you had stood firm,
victory would have been confirmed.
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American Idol
Souls with talent hidden,
they slowly emerge,
from within a crowd chosen.

Songs after songs given,
emotions surge,
then the feelings deepen.
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Seasons of Emotions

As we live through the seasons,
we feel the difference.
We know it is slow,
but we can only go with the flow.
We yearn for beauty to last,
but doesn’t it get replaced far too fast?

When winter changes to spring,
birds will gather and sweetly sing.
Melody of Man and birds will merge,
as we see heaven and land converge.
The Earth will blossom pink and white,
isn't it such a glorious sight?

As summer sets its foot on ground,
the school term comes around.
Students all ready and dressed,
joyful spirits lost in stress.
The atmosphere's so serious in the city,
isn't it just too much of a pity?

Then red leaves fall from the trees,
As autumn drift in with such ease.
Although we celebrate this festival,
we know winter hints its arrival.
The fear we hold deep within,
will we finish the trip around the Sun again?

The bare trees covered with snow,
winter itself has finally showed.
The skies all dull and gray,
streets all empty though it’s day.
These months of silence and sorrow,
but wouldn’t it be joy in the near tomorrow?
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Fairytale

A dream, a fantasy,
we long for it.
A wish, a desire,
we try to reach.
A hope, a chance,
we seek all life.
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Care

A simple word,
that displays your heart.
In this busy world,
it's loosing it's part.
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Life's a song,
To follow along.
It's a tale,
a story you've to tell.
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Emptiness

Some days, blue skies are as dark as stormy winter nights.
Others, they just give you stress that weigh you down.
You try in vain, but the pain just carves its way.
Not too soon later, you'll realize the dent becomes a black hole.
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Song
Lines of different meaning,
includes every little feeling.
The unique feel each holds,
as beauty from within unfolds.

The melody that hums,
with the beats of the base drums.
Just let the music run,
and have all of the sorrow shun.

Soft and sad some are sung,
Bright like daylight others has rung.
Often it seems so real,
It’s cause that’s how you really feel.
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Because of You
The scars I wear,
From love that is now bare.
My brittle heart,
has bled right from the start.

Words I believed,
I no longer forgive.
Smiles that you had,
Pain is that all it adds.
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Beauty of the rain
The warmth that weighs you,
as the day walks you through.
You hope to lift this bane,
as you try with much vain.

A new and sudden change,
as wind screams from range.
You sped up your pace,
as rain joins in the race.

Inspirations arise,
they come with such surprise.
The once sorrowful souls,
they now have their goals.
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Believe

There's light, no matter how dim.
There's chance, no matter how slim.
Tonight, we'll let our thoughts burn.
Enhance, the hopes that we yearn.
Take flight, we shall allow our dreams to.
Hold tight, until we make it through.
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Leave It, Forget It

The past memories may be vivid,
it may be difficult to get rid.
But fear should not be what you carry,
so face it with no trace of worry.
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Boredom
Like emptiness it creeps in,
and your ideas runs thin.
You are slowly going bare,
as you begin to wear.
You are losing your glower,
as you're slowly devoured.
Your world it is turning grey,
as you start to slip away.
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Bleeding Love
The day's dark with this eclipse,
as she stares across the thin fine glass.
A sad sigh escapes her lips,
as she tries hard to forget the last.

Tearless grief that bleeds inwards,
as she tries to mend her broken heart.
Life's a tragic list of words,
as she counts the days to her depart.

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Tired

the alarm rings,
an irritated groan.
a hand extended,
it's silenced.
A minute of slience,
then the sound comes on again.
heard a clap of thunder,
it lasted so long.
Woke up to realize,
it's mother calling.
stretching and yawning,
the legs swung off bed.
then they get moving,
toothbrush in hand.
Slowly the surrounds get cleared,
the bag is lifted.
now it weighs on shoulders,
another day to go.
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Never Again

Hands of the clock, they make their way,
dreams of being with you, slowly drains away.
Before the skies cleared, they were gray,
My emotions on me, they just seem to weigh.
Trying to forget, trying to stray,
yet these history, they just stay.
the mistakes made, the price to pay.
unfulfilled dreams, I am in dismay.
Thoughts of you, they haunt me every day.
Trying in vain, but I'll never be okay.
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Ray of Light

No matter how dark, there’s light somewhere.
No matter how dim, it’s just out there.
So dump your sorrow, walk unafraid.
It’s just your choice, to walk ahead.
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The Going

The chosen, the new,
it is as fresh as dew.
The days, the pain,
it stains it's way like rain.

The broken, the bare,
scars that you have to wear.
The fallen, the lost,
bleak trees covered with frost.

The goner, the drained,
nothing is left to gain.
The loner, the dead,
the tomorrow that one dread.
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Hell Girl
My emotions that had blossomed red,
Have now withered petal by petal.
History with all my precious tears shed,
Those feelings have already settled.

Images of you that used to flash,
Have now become empty and plain white.
Past filled with all your terrible trash,
I just couldn’t seem to find the light.

My love’s like the roses that have bloomed,
All are going away bit by bit.
My world where only the dark clouds loom,
I’m condemned to the sin you’ve commit.
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Unwritten

So hurt, so alone,
From the love I have always known.
The pain, the sorrow,
From the scars that’s far from shallow.

It’s torn, it’s broken,
My heart’s bleeding from words spoken.
My thoughts, my feelings,
My soul is finding the meanings.

I’m lost, I’m afraid,
All my dreams of you hasn’t fade.
Not once, not again,
I’m never going through this pain.
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Birthday

Going on to mid-teens,
Just a year older.
It's very like routines,
just more to shoulder.

Made a trip around the Sun,
perspective has changed.
Waking up to things undone,
everything's unchanged.
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Fate

Falling into the nothingness,
It's just a world of darkness.
Craving for the happiness,
Trying to forget all the sadness.

How come life's such a pain?
What is there to gain?
Where's the rainbow after the rain?
When will life change again?
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Nothing

Torn wings,
flight stopped.
Broken teeth,
great fall.

Empty insides,
depressed being.
Fallen angel,
Emotional soul.
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Inside One

The darkness that overwhelms,
isn't that of day and night.
The hole one feels,
isn't that of external pain.

The world one sees,
isn't that of present life.
The silence one hears,
isn't that of peace and quiet.
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Autumn Without You

Even the streets clear,
and the doors close,
For an autumn without you.

Even the pavements drown,
and the trees' tears,
For this autumn's without you.

Even the leaves fear,
and the ground hides,
For the autumn without you.

Even the wild mourns,
and the wind howls,
For an autumn's without you.
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My brittle heart breaks,
at sight of this pain.
Hoping I would wake,
to find no remains.

Yearning for the day,
I could be freed.
Hoping for the way,
a guiding light would lead.
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Longing for the day,
I could walk away,
from this painful weigh.

Words I can never convey,
feelings that just stay,
when did I become a prey?

Mistakes made, price to pay,
Every step taken I'll sway,
just hoping I would not stray.

You are indeed my dismay,
Though I always get betrayed,
I've to go on with life, no more delays.
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Let Go

The hatred, the fear,
mingled together.
The anger, the joy,
feelings being toyed.

Start over, come again,
I don't want this bane.
Free me, let me go,
I want to follow the flow.
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Earth

The home to all,
somewhere where we can never fall.
The peace it brings,
melody of all races sing.
The unity,
laughter from the community.
Mother Earth,
It's our origin and birth.
Here we belong,
Where we will forever stand strong.
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Air

Warming or cooling,
the reason why we are living.
Light breeze or howling,
when the wind will sing us its song.
Humid or refreshed,
our desires never crushed.
Extend and welcome,
Allow air to cleanse all the glum.
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Water

Tears and rain,
Should not be what we call pain.
Laughs and smiles,
is what it brings from miles.
Tamed or wild,
it has everything complied.
With gratitude,
water shall change our attitude.
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Fire

Passion and love,
holds you like a dove.
Desire and yearn,
Light and let it burn.
Ablaze and bright,
the beauty ignite.
Within and true,
Loyalty shins through.
Comfort and heat,
Never will fire glow with defeat.
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Spirit

The first laugh and cry,
the world through our very eyes.
From the ashes we rise,
the heart and soul with no disguise.
The life given to us,
what our Goddess has blessed.
With pride and respect,
the evil shall never have effect.
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Water Spell

The home to many, the home to me.
A place that's blue, a portal I went through.
It's underground, never to be found.
Send my prayer, to the heir.
Lend me power, I can devour.
Truth hidden within, it's where we begin.
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Anger
The coming eruption,
anger brewed from deep within.
The sorrow hidden,
by these curtains of hatred.
Agony's forgotten,
at times where fury burns.
Consumed by all the flames,
engulfed by the loath kept in.
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I come and I go, with speed and agility to follow.
I move and I stay, but this home to me everyday.
I visit and I grow, the candles of life I have known.
I wish and I pray, for peace and untiy not to stray.
I thank and I bow, to return again with what I owe.
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The home to many, the home to me.
A place that's blue, a portal I went through.
It's underground, never to be found.
Send my prayer, to the heir.
Lend me power, I can devour.
Truth hidden within, it's where I begin.
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Manifest an element so strong,
Something you've yearned so long.
That energy flowing right through,
Feeds the hope burning in you.
Your world where ability rains,
Desire for the power you will gain.
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You’re my future, hope, and tomorrow,
Endless days of joy and laughter will follow.
All my history, past, and yesterdays,
Those nights of pain and grief, all casted away.
At this moment, now, and present life,
We shall never stop continuing this strife.
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Dark against light, dim against brignt,
stars twinkles the secrest efore twilight.
Soft against loud, smooth against rough,
Nothing ever seems tpo be good enough.
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Incomplete

Sad and forlorn eyes,
gazing wistfully at the sky.
With a heart of sorrow and agony,
one feels the constrain.
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Erik's Heartache

Promised you'll always love me,
Said I'm the only one you see,
but your love's only that of a pea.

You tore me into shreds,
left me hanging by a thread,
ignoring the tears I've shed.

My soul that's all worn,
my heart that's all torn,
Stuck in this life I mourn.

You'll never see my tears
You'll never know my fears
I'm counting down the years.
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The Scream

Silence of the night,
beauty of the dark.
Shadow against light,
A soul makes her mark.

Tracking in the sand,
Sorrow carved deep in.
Drag away from land,
her last unheard to her kin.
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Change

Forcing others with your power,
Makes your day nothing but sour.
So drop the peacock feather,
And welcome better weather.
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Seeking Light

Engulfed by one’s own sorrow,
dominated by this silent fear.
Afraid to know what follows,
terrified to shed even a tear.
Seeking for the tomorrow,
For the fallen angel, me, right here.
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Fallen

You have worked so hard,
but no fruits seem to bear.
A love you regard,
returned with a glare.
In your hand a card,
but those words are all bare.
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No Fear

From heavy to slight,
emotions turn bright.
From darkness to light,
activities of delight.
From day to night,
enjoy the exquisite sight.
What's there to fright?
Everything will be alright.

Oooohhhh.. So I see.... It's that? Sorry, it was because it was so dead, I doubt nobody would read it so I asked to have it removed.